Nostalgia

woah. i hate it. i hate it so bad. i hate nostalgia. i know its the name of my blog and all, but i really hate it! i really do... and to you guys who don't know what it means, it means "a sentimental yearning for the past". well, i guess almost everybody has had this feeling before. its so bittersweet, so beautiful yet painful. yea... it hurts. it really really does... every thought that comes to my mind almost immediately fills up my brain with feelings i know very well, thoughts of you. i know i don't want to care about all this anymore, but its really very difficult. it really is... it really was just so beautiful. like a fairy tale which jumped out of its book. like a drama series which comes into reality. no words can really describe how it felt and was back in the past. the happiest memories of my entire life have turned into excruciating agony for this fragile heart. my mind suddenly turns back time just to remember the wonderful moments in my life, and suddenly the beautiful scene turns into pitch black wall of darkness and distress for me. rare joyous unforgettable times have become decriments to me. i feel the misery swirling all over inside me. filling me up with this nostalgia. all over, i cant feel contentment in life anymore. i just wish this nostalgia would all be of the amazing moments in the past, and that it would stay that way forever. would someone just end this misery? help me...