I Wont wait anymore

guess you guys were right all along. from the very start. i just didnt heed your warnings. from the very start, you guys were already warning me about THE relationship. well, you guys were hella right. bastards. why must you guys be right?? i so freaking wanted to prove all you guys wrong. i really thought we would. i really though we could. but... just look. its pathetic. utterly worse than i ever thought it'd become. you keep saying you still love me. BULLSHIT. what a bunch of crapped out lies. nonsense. i should never have believed you. stupid little me. always being so naive. so freaking immature. dammit. why must i be such an idiot? why?? should really have listened to you guys. i really should have. what a dumbass. what a freaking moronic dumbass. hate my life. hate myself. i have a bloody low self esteem. shit.
this time's different my dear. this time, i wont be regretting. i wont be missing you. no more. the old pathetic me will not wait for you anymore. there really isn't any point in doing so anymore. you just dont get it do you. you could just take all this for granted. you think im some kind of playtoy you can get entertained by for awhile, then when you get bored of it, you throw it aside like trash. treating me like trash. you think it'll help? no. freaking no! dammit. what you're gonna love me forever as long as i love you. what a bunch of horse shit. see what happened?? i really dont think you kept that promise. empty promises. this damned relationship was full of it eh? bloody hell. but, i really dont want to care anymore. i really really dont want to anymore. even though its really gonna be difficult to let you go. but no. i will not care anymore. i WILL NOT. for forever, this IS goodbye. no more trying to be nice to you so you'd take me back. no more. cuz as hard as i try, SOMEONE dosen't really want to talk to me eh? EH?? so yea. goodbye. goodbye forever. im sorry i ever wasted my time and sooooo much money and that insane amount of love on you. that is my regret. you are not. no more regretting that it ended. no more. so, we'll probably never ever talk again. but i really dont want to care about that. i really dont. and this time, i WON'T. so yea. for the last time, goodbye.



cuz i just cant take it.
another day without you with me, is like a blade that cuts right through me.
but i won't wait. i won't wait anymore.
when you call, my heart stops beating.
when you're gone, it won't stop bleeding.
but i won't wait. i won't wait anymore...