Take me home

well guys, life really sucks. especially when you lose everything you love right at the moment your life gets busier. its so difficult. so much stress but no one to hear me out. all i can do is sit in my chair and stone, filled with so many thoughts flying around in my mind. i wish i could spill it all out. but i cant. i cant tell anyone about it. cuz no one would understand. nobody would really help. nobody... but you. i wish you were still by my side, with me. life would be so much better. life wouldn't be a festival of pain. life would be back to the way it was. but why? why am i still missing you so much? why must i miss you so much? i don't want to. but i can't control my heart and the way it wants to be. it wishes to be back with yours. next to yours. together... but, alas, for i know its not to be. and i'd probably never have you in my arms again. all i have left is this ugly regret. i look at myself in the mirror and remember all the mistakes i made. every single one. how it made everything disappear within such a short time. and how it can never be undone. how it'll stay there in my heart forever, wishing i could just press Ctrl-Z and we'd be back in December where i can redo what i had done wrong. but thats not reality. thats not how this wretched world works. all i can do, and what i must do now, is just to put those remorse away behind me. i would... if i could. but i just can't! i can't live like this. i really can't. how i wish i could just die and leave behind this agony-filled place. this place called Earth. no i don't want to be an astronaut. i want my time to come. my time to enter into the place where our souls dwell. where there won't be anymore heartbreaks and stressed-filled minds. to pass away... to die... how beautiful. how much livelier i'd be... how i wouldn't have to go through the trials and tribulations of this unforgiving world. thats my wish. thats my plea... my plea to be brought away forever.
Dear God, please take me home...