Impossible for Ignorance

well, dear. im so confused now. i dont know whats going on anymore. are you still there? are you still loving me? i really hope so you know. i miss you. i miss you a hell lot. honestly, i havent done a thing without thinking about you. seriously. that may sound very whatever-ish, but well, its true. no matter how hard i try, i miss you too much to really let you out of this heart. i dont get it... why do i love you so? im so confused you know. i really want to talk to you dear, but you dont seem to want to even though... well, i dont know. but i just really want to do this right. though as much as i dont want this to end, i know its probably for the better and thats what we should be mature enough to accept. but even so, can we at least please end it right. its just left out there stuck with all the pain and denial. left there hanging and stuck there at the back of this idiotic mind of mine. i cant have it there... i really cant. its taking everything away from me. i cant feel much about anything. no emotion. but even so, i still miss you ever so much. why? why? why? i hate this you know. i try but i fail... i fail. i seem to fail in all my relationships with everyone. why? am i fated to have this shit in my life? am i?? i dont know. but all i know is that i really really still love you... i cant believe i still love you so damn much. but... i just do. and theres really nothing i can do about it. well, hope things turn out better over this week. hope... but love is still the greatest.