well, VBC is over. i know i haven't posted much. but its not like anybody really comes here. oh wells... VBC was actually much better than i expected. i hadn't expected to grow an attachment with the kids since i was extremely busy with the skit and praise&worship. but turned out in another way i hadn't forseen. grew to really love the kids, hopefully they felt the same way in the end too. really cute kids, and i couldn't have asked for a better group. but alas, its over and im probably never gonna see a lot of them, especially DanielChoi.
but this post isn't meant for VBC and its happenings. but more of the things i've thought up by accident during my tuitions. i've remembered some stuff that i really don't want to. the wonderful memories just flooded back and there was nothing i could do to stop them. it came so suddenly. it came so unexpectedly. and in my mind, i saw you. i saw your pretty little face and your glistening eyes. i went back in time yet again, and pictured me and you, just staring deep into each others' eyes, thinking that it'd last forever, unaware of what it would become. it is all these little moments when i just wish i could do something about everything, wish i wasn't as useless as i am. but these are merely wishful thinkings, and there really isn't anything i can do about it. i feel helpless. i feel like everything around me is moving forward and taking things into their own hands, while i sit there unable to move, paralysed, and all i can do is wait for my time to leave this Earth. because i can't forget. i can't forget those eyes. so deep and beautiful, nothing you'd every imagine. nobody would understand this. nobody. unless you've been through all this, and gaze into those mesmerising pupils. as these thoughts run through my mind, i breakdown inside. i can't concentrate on the assement books lying in front of me. i can't take my eyes of you. and i'd probably never will...
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